There are those times in my life (and maybe yours) when youre just sitting around and the thought/question pops its head into your brain, “Who are you and where the hell do you think you’re going?”. This question, depending on the point in my life we are talking about, either makes me high as a kite or forces me to see the suck that I live in. We/I/You should ask this question daily. Look around you. See the friends, family and clutter that makes up your life. See them for who/what they are and then cut the fat. Don’t wuss out. See your life for what it is, if you are not happy then grow a pair and change. Not just change, grow. Don’t jump ship when its not even sinking. Change for the sake of change is alright in a small amount of cases, but changeing so that you can grow is always the way to take.
So there I sat. At my parents house for the evening. Mom and Dad in the back room watching thier “stories” and I was up front looking through On Demand trying to figure out whether or not I wanted to watch The Great Outdoors or Candyman. When it hit me. I mean, I could feel its icy hands wrapping around my mind for a few hours, but then it made itself known. The question. “Where/What the hell do you think your going/doing?” My answer? (and excuse the harshness of my response, but this is how my brain sounds) “The fuck if I know.” At first it worried me. But then it dawned on me, I’m living, I have a wife who loves me, Parents who dont mind me veging out on thier sofa occaisionally, a God who has given me His promises even if I do fuck up and time to grow. Does this mean I dont feel miserable about things in my life? Does this mean I wont screw up at every turn? Does this mean my life is super duper awesome? Nope. What it does mean is that when I fail I should be aware enough to pick up the peices around me and see where i went wrong and then try my damndest not to do it again.
Hope this helps. If not and you think I should stick to pop culture and entertainment.. or even quit all together. Then tell me to make that change and Ill try to grow from it.
- *|-listening to: Beck - Gamma Ray-|*
- *|-Going to watch: The Great Outdoors-|*
